Girls from "Fengrong Daughters' Home"

SSN story

On the surface, SSN is very different from other "budding" girls. She is a bit slovenly and deliberately shows her ugly side to others. At one point, she yelled at a girl and punched a wall with her fists. I heard that when she first came to "Fengrong Daughters' Home", she refused to take a bath. She wanted to make herself dirty and ugly, and drive all men away.

Can you blame her? There is no good man in her family. Her father doesn't work, but hangs out in bars all day long. When he was drunk, he would punch and kick his wife and children. My mother has been under pressure for a long time and has a bad temper. SSN is the youngest in the family, with two brothers and three sisters. But instead of being protected, she became the most abused.

From the age of six, she often went to the woods to collect firewood with her second brother. Once, her brother suddenly ordered her to lie down and began to rape her. This happens all the time. There was no way for her to cry. In the huge mountain forest, she was like a rabbit in the mouth of a wolf, unable to resist and could only let out a weak whine. From then on, she was frightened every time she went up the mountain.

Back home, there was no peace either. They live together as a family, including brother and sister. Several times, her eldest brother-in-law molested her when there was no one at home. Afterwards, she told her sister, but she was slapped in the face and accused of spitting blood. In this way, her brother-in-law became more emboldened and made her suffer all kinds of injustice. Her family knew these things to some extent, and she believed that her mother also knew it, but her mother could not protect herself, so she could only open one eye and close the other. Once, SSN suddenly felt dizzy, and her family members all thought she had contracted a sexually transmitted disease. (In their eyes, she was a bad woman!) Her brother and brother-in-law even wanted to kill her.

When she was fifteen years old, she passed a temple when she was going to school and met a monk. She was about to nod and say hello to him, but he hugged her and wanted to kiss her. Fortunately, she had a little strength at that time and was able to do so. The bad monk broke free from his arms and ran away.

SSN was only sixteen years old, but she had already experienced such deep harm, and the harm was caused by someone in her own family. There was unspeakable anger suppressed in her, and she didn't know when it would erupt like a volcano, hurting others and herself, and getting out of control. God opened a way out for her in time and came to "Fengrong Daughters' Home".

Growing up in such a broken family, it was difficult for SSN to trust people. When she came to the Daughter's Home, she was always on guard. Sometimes she used her anger to build a fence around herself to protect herself from being violated. But gradually she could feel that the atmosphere here was very different. The nanny took good care of her, taught her to cook, do housework, and take good care of herself. She tasted the maternal love she had longed for. The gentle guidance and patient listening of teachers and counselors deeply washed away the despair and resentment deep in her soul. She has also made a few good friends, and since they are all on the same journey, they can reveal their inner secrets and comfort each other. All this made her feel as if she had come from hell to heaven.

(This article is reprinted from the website of "Fengrong Fellowship of Christ" www.ficfellowship.org. Every girl in "Fengrong Daughters' Home" has a heart-wrenching story. If you are moved after reading it, I hope you and " "Christ's Abundance Fellowship" works together to practically help these precious daughters of God who have suffered misfortune in this world.)

作者小檔案 邱清萍牧師，「基督豐榮團契」董事會主席，在美國中國信徒佈道會事奉卅餘年，目前於中信擔任事工專員。著有《行在愛中》、《活在愛中》、《還我伊甸的豐榮》、《兩性復和》等；編著、譯著多本書，專職寫作與講道。